Letter to Myself!

  

Hi Utkarsha, this is Utkarsha. I know it's funny, talking to yourself but aren’t most essential things funny? You might think this is a tragic situation that you are in, you might want to give up, or rather find someone who wouldn’t let you give up. Either way, I am here now, to give you the emotional validation that you most need. At times when your eyes swell up in bed, before you put on your mascara and lipstick to conceal the sadness, I want you to know that it's okay to feel things. It is okay to wallow for some time, but it is not okay to forget to love yourself while doing so. It is okay to cry until your heart breaks but don’t forget to eat your favorite ice cream later to remind you that life is still sweet. An empty hole remains empty only when you forget to fill it with self-esteem and confidence. Let the tears wash out all hurt but make sure it is to create space for something better than the sunshine and the moonshine that promise you light, but it is the promise of darkness that keeps you grounded and lets you appreciate life. It is okay to not have all the answers. I know how frustrating it is, being unable to connect the dots. I have been there! But know, that life works in mysterious ways. Always believe in the magic of hope and patience and never forget to enjoy a ride on your favorite road once in a while. Life is short and that my love is the biggest comedy and tragedy you will ever face. Be brave, enjoy and give love even to strangers. We all fight battles that no one talks about. When you are kind, life becomes beautiful, making you forget your heartbreaks and embrace reality.

I know this is too much wisdom from your 30-year-old self, I am too much risk averse now. I avoid walking on eggshells, I have become more calculative and built walls around me for protecting myself from getting hurt. Perhaps I can learn a thing or two from you about taking risks, believing in self and loving so hard. Love you always!